We take life and everything in it forgranted. Don’t say we don’t. We do. If we are truly honest with ourselves …. the appreciation of life would be more transparent. It usually has a grip on us or it grabs our attention to switch our focus. It’s like that lightbulb moment. Aha…. then we finally get it! Sad to say we’ve all been there. No matter if we try to deny it or not. Question is where does your appreciation for life rest?
A few weeks ago… life was going pretty good. Our Oldest playing Hockey, got an a job in construction and loving his boss and the crew he works with. Just sold his old car bought a newer one, all on his own. Life was going good.
I went to his hockey game one Wednesday night. I was excited to see him play. I was unable to make the last few games. So this was nice to see our kid doing what he loves.
As the game is going on we are winning. Just started the third period. Oh… my body cringed as I see him get hit hard in the boards and his head slams down on the ice..it’s the last period of the game. My heart sinks….knowing… he’s had two major concussions prior. One minor. He was enjoying the game until that moment. He sat the rest of the game. After the game we headed home. Then he called and told us… he pulled over in his car and he was dizzy. My heart froze. Did you want us to come get you? One of us will drive your car home? As determined and strong willed he said no. He made it home. It felt like the longest wait….waiting for him to walk through the doors.
The next day… he went to work…still dizzy. Only to be sent home…handling equipment and being dizzy not a good mix. I got home from my bus run …he’s home (?!)and my husband already made an appointment at pan am concussion clinic. So off We went.
Once he was seen. DR. asked if NHL prospects are not looking so good. I think it’s time to hang up the skates! Not that he was not expecting it…. just needed to confirm it. Get it in writing. Easier to explain to people why hes quitting something he loves. Not really a choice in the matter. You Only have one head in life….take care of it.
He is helping coach a younger team. He can’t give up on a sport he so loves. He has alot to offer and give back. Last night he finally went on the ice. He tried last practice but was too dizzy. As i was watching practice and watching him skate… I had to hold my breath a bit as he skated around. It was nice to see him joking around with the kids and being on the ice.
He has been off work for over a month. We no longer have supper almost in the dark….the lights don’t bother as much. And this takes time. I am just so thankful for the time I have had with him.
I am thankful for all our kids. I don’t have that many just 3 healthy amazing young men. I love that they are becoming there own person, standing up for themselves. I love being blessed to be called there mom.
During the Christmas break I had to just take it all in. Hearing the boys laugh and just bug each other was the most beautiful gift. I love how well they get along and how they have each other’s back. I see as different as each one is… they realize we are all so very unique.
I took the time to watch the movie CONCUSSION…the lead actor was Will Smith. Based on a true story. More about NFL but the research and knowledge behind concussions are mind boggling. And I question …. the information that is coming out….why do they still allowing hitting in any sport? Hockey/Football…. I know the game would not be as exciting but do we need to watch a blood bath? Is it worth it for these men to literally loose there mind. What is it going to have to take in order for the hitting to stop.??
Knowing all this I am more that thankful our son is done playing contact sports….but did it have to come to this?!
I am thankful we can say our son is Ok. He has slowly eased his way back into work this week. Glad to see him come home tired but a smile on his face! God is good….at the time God is Good!